Alt-Right: What the Hell Is It?

I'll do a blog post or perhaps a video on this soon, but I got doxxed back in April. Basically, I was posting some fairly edgy stuff on my Facebook page and on Twitter, but no one really cared because I was just some rando. Then a former associate of my mind decided to comb through my social media accounts and compile a curated a selection of my most "racist" tweets, posts, and comments, and post them to the public Facebook page of her (formerly our) non-profit organization, which has tens of thousands of followers. Her rationale was that she felt it was her duty to let everybody know I was now a Big Racist and disavow me in case anyone saw my stuff and thought I was still affiliated with her group.

Of course, no one had seen my stuff, and everyone knew I wasn't affiliated with the group for well over a year. But now the whole damn world was seeing my stuff, and after I was a headline on HuffPo, the Independent UK, and more, I was once again being mentioned in the same breath as her group. All the sudden, though I had left the prolife movement for many months, I was an "anti-abortion leader" again, simply because it was harmful to the prolife movement for me to be associated with it.

At first, I didn't really take the doxing seriously. I had blocked this woman long before, but people were sending me screen shots of her post and the SJW comments on it. I wasn't too concerned, found the whole thing absurd, and decided to just lean into it. So I posted on Facebook that I found myself sympathizing with the alt-right more and more, that I considered myself a "race realist," and that I didn't hate anyone or wish harm on anyone but that I felt every nation had a right to its identity and the preservation of its culture. Something along those lines.

What was the one word bloggers and journalists picked out of that paragraph? You guessed it: "alt-right."

If I had to go back and do it all over, that's the one word I'd change. I probably still would have been excoriated, but I was naive to use it. I had been reading tons of stuff and watching loads of videos and I was seeing the alt-right as an intellectual movement, but the average person reading that word just saw torches at Charlottesville, a woman getting killed by an angry "Nazi" and his car, Richard Spencer getting sucker punched on Inauguration Day, etc. 

I've since come to believe the term "alt-right" has been pretty well corrupted by outfits like The Right Stuff, Daily Shoah, and Daily Stormer. Many of these people are unironic Hitler-lovers who sincerely advocate for genocide, and I don't think I'm alone when I say I don't want to share a label with them. I am a Christian first and everything else second. I don't know what the answer is to the current crisis, either at home or abroad, but if it involves mass murder I'd rather go instinct. If the survival of the white race depends on throwing women and babies into a gas chamber, then I guess I will just have to hope there are no no-go zones in Heaven. Where any political movement or ideology departs from Christianity, there I depart from it. 

It seems that after Charlottesville there was a major splintering, and while some still use the term alt-right, many are now relying on far right, dissident right, radical right, ethnonationalist, or just nationalist. I would love to see more cohesion, but maybe it's impossible. As an outsider looking in, it seems like the movement got so visible so quickly that perhaps mistakes were made in strategy, optics, and leadership. 

That's enough armchair quarterbacking. I guess I just wanted to write down somewhere that when I called myself alt-right, I didn't mean to align myself with the Stormer types. This crisis will not have a peaceful end. I doubt the problem is going to fix itself, that we will all suddenly decide to sing Kumbaya and peacefully segregate, that the migrant hordes of Europe will come to their limited senses and queue for boats back to their shitholes, that the 40 million Mexicans in the US will suddenly miss getting diarrhea from tap water and haul ass for the Rio Grande. If anything is going to change, it will be the result of some kind of physical conflict, I'm afraid. There is no way around it. But acknowledging the inevitability of war and calling for violent ethnic cleansing are very different. Deportation is one thing, genocide is quite another, and I am not -- nor will I ever be -- on board with the latter.